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Holiday just stared and this time the holiday take about 4 month. What should I do in 4 month?

Gosh.. I'm bored.. I want activity.. So far there only 1 activity that been done few more. Playing futsal and watch movie with my friend. Watch Pirates of Carribean and Kung Fu Panda 2. Those movie are awesome.. =]
I hope there another episode of the Kung Fu Panda.. =D

About my life.. There nothing much to talk about. Same story just like always. =P

There a message for the person,

the way u express your feeling make me doubt about your feeling on me. Seriously, I really think

you are on off mode now. Just like last time? Will this going to end up like last time? I'm tired to face

same phase again n again. It make me to think back what actually inside your mind. 

Did you ever think about me? or never at all? I don't know..

I wish I can go through your mind and see what did you really think. 

Maybe I'm not the type of person that you looking for after all. To understand you for 24/7.

I'm not a perfect person.

ON / OFF 

Is there a button for feeling ? Haizz.. 

Move with Smile..

It's been a while I didn't update my blog. Hmm.. What should I write here? XD

Yesterday I went to Balloon Fiesta in Putrajaya XD

It's kinda fun though even though it's over crowded..

Hmm.. This weeks I watch lot's of movie. The fighter, Battle Of LA, The Adjustment Bureau, Rango and Merong Mahawangsa. XD

Those movie give me lot's of fun especially RANGO.It make me laugh till my ass off the chair.. Hahahahaha

I include some photo from the Festival. =]

Hola March..

Hello March.. Here I come. Please to be nice to me and I love you.

On the 1st March, I got my LSP 300 paper. I got a B+ for the paper. Sigh..

I'm not happy with the result. But thanks to Miss Nik for becoming a good lecturer.

I try to get a better result next time miss and I won't make you upset. =]

While Miss was discussing the paper I heard girl sreaming from upstairs. First I thought

they just playing arround and making the loud noise because usually they love to laugh very

loud. But then suddenly Miss Hadijah come in to our class and say there someone faint

in the class. I heard there a girl faint. Miss asking me and few of our friends to carry

her to downstairs so she can be send to the clinic. She faint on the 3rd floor and she quite

heavy too. Even she is heavy I have to carry her. After carry her to the car she was directly sent to

the clinic. After that I back to the class. After went home, I felt that my muscle is in pain and

I feel my arm can't move. I think it cause by the incident in the evening. Carry something that

heavy in sudden will cause muscle damage. I don't mind about it because I help someone that need 

my help. Who knows maybe next time I need people help right ? And it's a good practice for me 

because in future it might happen to your family member. 

People Calling me heroes.. hahahaha.. 

So today, 4th March.. I went to futsal training in Taman Wawasan arround 12am+.

It's quite a good training because my team going to participate in the College Sport Games.

I score few goal and I still did not satisfy with my current condition.

It's good though because I can train my body and sweat. I have my target for

slimming my body. Hahahahahaa... Can I achieve my target? I always wanted to see

my body in smaller edition. I have 3 class later that start on 11.30am but yet I haven't 

sleep. Okay. Bye for now. Will update A.S.A.P

Love you All.. :D

I am Number Four..

Today I watch movie with my friends. We watch the ' I am number four ' movies.

It's quite a nice movie and hang out at AnW. I love the onion ring. O.O

Make me want to eat more. 

New day's coming up and I'm going to face all the challenge.

First day has been through with single life.

Everything going to be just fine. (^____^) .V.

New days..

I don't know how to explain this but I think it's the best for both for us. So today is 

a new day. I wish everything going to be just fine. =] 

Like people said broken heart doesn't mean it's the end of your life.

Sometime we have to move on and leave the thing behind even though you love them.

Sometime it's for your own good and for her too.

Wish me luck kay? and support me coz I need it right now.

Now is 4.30am but I haven't sleep yet b'coz I sleep too long. Perhaps just too long.

I can't even yawn that showing I'm sleepy.. Haiz.. Help me~

Yesterday is history, Today is Present and Tomorrow is Future.

There different between those. 

History making us become a better person.

Present is a gift that nothing can compare with.

Future is something new and there many thing to be done and the world is huge to be explore.

Appreciate someone that standing infront of you before you regret that you lost them.

Love them and care about them before you don't have the chance again.

Find Friends but not to Find Enemy.

3 month is a new experience for me and thanks again for giving me chance

to love you. I will kept it as a memory even though it's hurt me lot's.

I wish you're always mine but maybe this is not our fate to be together.

Maybe next time or in the future we can be together but not now.

GOD created us with love but not with hatred. So, spread the love arround  and forgive those who

maybe hurt you or do something bad behind you.

Now I'm single and I will enjoy my life to the fullest and never give up on my life.

There many thing that I want to experience.

That's all for today. I will update my blog soon. =]

Love ya all. Thanks for supporting me always =]

My last Message.

I don't know why I'm thinking like this.

But after thinking about it I think we should officially breaking up.

It's for your own good and your future too.

Tell you the truth I don't have anyone else that I love(special girl) except you but

I can't avoid the truth about our relationship. In this 3 month, I always thought that

our relationship is going smooth but unfortunately some serious problem occur in our relationship.

Both of us can't handle it well so it lead to our broken relationship.

I know I can't make it up. So I'm sorry again I have done something that I'm not suppose to do.

You assume me as a friend after the tragedy. But I think the opposite of it.

Love Vs Friend. 

I have to end this before it getting more worse and hurt me more.

I'm Sorry again.

I don't know....

I try to close my eyes but I just can't close it. I don't know why I can't close

my eyes.. My mind keep on thinking and think all the stuff that I wanna to do.

I also keep on thinking about my past. 

To be truth, you might see me strong and tough from the outside but

from the inside I'm weak and emotional.

Last few days, I just broke up and I'm sad about it. I wish both of us

can stay in the relationship and hold it for long time.

I want and need someone to be always closed to me.

I want someone to care about me.

I want someone to comfort and be there when I need them.

I need someone that trust me and willing to share their problem with me.

I love to joke sometime people will get piss because of me. 

I'm sorry again if I hurt you. I'm sorry for making those lame jokes.

I'm sorry become a jerk.

I love you but this is the only story that we can write together.

I will keep this as my memory.

You win my heart and now I have to let you go.

It's hard for me to let you go but I think I'm not the guy that suite for you.

I wish you found someone that better then me and can make you happy.

I'm very sorry I can't FULFILL my promise.

HATE ME if you want to because this is what I deserve for making you scared, unhappy, and making you sad. 

I'm very disappointed !!

I never thought this will coming into my relationship. 

When people questioning about my LOVE it's like

doubting me. So now. What should I do. I feel like being stun by this matter.

I'm very tired and lazy to think. 

I wonder why you didn't tell me earlier about this matter.

Why don't you tell me that you hate that jokes when I say it out ?

Perhaps this is my fault. I been keep on thinking and thinking.

DON'T MAKE ME MAKE a WRONG DECISION !

I'm just a normal guy that do mistake. You can't expect me to be perfect.

If you looking someone that perfect and suite you the most.

I'm sorry I'm not a perfect person. 

I don't care about people say about me nor your friend say about me !

What I care is what you think. 

I been trying and keep on trying to save this relationship.

You never know that my tears drop because of you. 

When I say I LOVE you I really mean it. 

But if you doubt about it. I can't do anything about it.

I think I'm the one who always think about our relationship.

Prove me that I'm wrong. I can't handle this stress anymore.

Please help me. I got tons of assignment which I have to do and submit by this week.

I can divide my time just for you but can you do the same?

I WOULD TO ASK YOU. DO YOU STILL LOVE ME ?

Should I or Should Not?

I been thinking about this matter again and again. 

I'm tired of thinking. I don't know. How about you help me decide for me?

Can ya? My heart and my head is super confuse. 

Should I let it be ? I'm super confuse. 

Why I think on the harder side? I made a promise to myself

but should I break the promise for my happiness?

Hmm.. I think I should decide it and make both side happy and

take their own way because of us have bright future.

Okay.. Let me think. Give me few day to cool down.

Sorry to think like this but it's not your fault.

You can put the blame on me. 

I will think about this deeply and tell you the answer.

I might be hurt but if for your sake of happiness I will let you go.

Should I or Should Not? 

Bla bla bla blaaaa...

I really need some LOVE now. I need it desperately. I wanna hug someone right now

but I CANT because there someone else in my heart.

I'm afraid I'm just not perfect enough for her but I'm trying my best

for her. All I want is trust and believe on me. I want to help her but

I can't. How I wish I can help her but too bad I can't even understand

her problem nor trying helping her to solve the problem.

If I did something wrong please tell me so I can change it

You the one that I have.. I commit on it but I'm afraid being hurt by the one I love.

But I'm used to it and able to face the fact. Thanks to the history and I been able to face

this matter. 

About my studies, I have problem in doing my assignment. Garhhh... too much pressure

on me. 3 works to submit in 1 week but I'm trying my best to solve my problem.

Please don't put any pressure on me. I can't handle too much 

pressure on 1 time.

I want my game life but luckily I have housemate that can follow my flow

DOTA, Counter-Strike, Online Game. ROAR !!

GOD hear my prayer.

To heavenly father in heaven,  

Please guide me and help me to face this problem.

Please bless my life, family and my friends. 

In the name of Jesus Christ

AMEN !

Heart , Dream and Picture.

It's been a while I didn't update my blog. Ohh.. It's not a while but it's 

been for 3 month from the last post. I'm so sorry because didn't update my blog. =] and 

here the newest update on my life. =]

HEART

I don't know why I feel my heart is getting far and far from me.

Did it mean something ? Or I'm just being paranoid ? 

Don't know. I feel so blur right now~

It's almost for 3 month and feel happy for it but too bad

we are separate from each other for a while because 

holiday is over and I had to come back to college.

DREAM 

I want to finish my studies in college and start working. (I think so).

PICTURE

After log on into my facebook. HER picture pop out. I miss her smile and

laugh. How I wish I can keep the smile but it just cant because

you just don't belong to me. But I'm grateful I have someone that have

nice , cute , gorgeous and so on girl friend.

I Love you always Eva Edward. =] 

Holiday Picture

- Picture -

Photographer : Joel Ewel

Place : Sutra Mas, Puchong.

Camera Brand : DSLR Nikon 

History

I will not repeat my past mistake and make that ruin my life again.

Appreciate thing that in front me before I don't have the chance again in future.

Overcome the situation and become a better person.

Experience keep coming to my life and I always learn from it.

Neither bad or good but lot's from it is from the good side. ( Happy for it )

I'm so grateful being bless with lot's of joy in life.

Life should be live to the fullest and enjoy while you can. =]

I'm grateful because been bless in my life from the start I been born until now.

Pray

My Fathers in heaven, here by I wish that my trip to my hometown is safe and

thank you for blessing me for giving me a good health.

Here, I'm also pray for my family, my dear, bestie, and friends for their health. 

My Father in heaven, I wish for Your guide to face the temptation of Satan

I pray in the name of Jesus Christ.

AMEN

My wishlist on my holiday

- Meet My Family.

- Meet My Dear.

- Meet My Bestie. 

- Meet My Friends.

- Go to Church

- Having a good time on Christmas / Birthday

- Repent on my sin. 

- WE ONLY GOT 1 LIFE, SO LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST -

Dream and World

It's not wrong to be on your world or amaze with your own world.

You are happy but in your world there some piece are missing

but you haven't realizes about it. The missing piece is going to guide you

and show you the path. 

We are still young, you got your world and I also got my world which 

is not the same. I got a dream to achieve and so do you but with or without the

missing piece you still can achieve your dream. It's your call to find the missing piece but the question 

is, the missing piece is already in front you but will you take it or just leave it there?

The missing piece is there and waiting for you to pick it up and wish you to complete your puzzle that

you been wondering  about. 

Understanding you is part of the challenge, I do learn and keep to understanding

about you. Thank you for try to understanding me but it's not I didn't try to

understand your world. That why I'm giving you time. Think about how do

we decrease the gap between us.

-  Your World and My World  -

BECOME ONE or TWO

The Truth

To tell you the truth I do hurt but what can I do ?

I don't have other choice but to face it.

I'm not telling you because I don't want you to think about me but yourself.

It's for your own good. If I tell you that I'm hurts I'm pretty sure you will think lots of thing.

To tell you the result of the test, YES you did pass. But it's all about time until

you really really ready to accept me in your life BUT

NOT as a  NORMAL FRIEND.

Let's see the progress and see how it works. 

12/12 and 27/12 ( If can )

- Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You -

P/S : I keep on thinking positive day by day but everybody do have their limits.

Daydreaming.

DAYDREAMING

Daydreaming is over, time to face the reality 

both of us still young and still figure out how does it feel. (I mean the feeling)

I do happy when she say Yes but from that moment there lots of feeling coming 

and think and think about it. It need both side to work it out not 1 side.

YES. I'm giving her time to get ready. Until that time, we try to get along.

and ONCE AGAIN

HELLO WORLD !! HERE I COME !!

\m/  Hell Yeah \m/

STEWART COMING TO YA WORLD !!

One thing for sure, you know I feel on you. Wink*

Just For You !

I been dreaming about you last night,

I cant wait for the moment to arrive. 

Warm of my heart will warm you in the cold.

Hold my hand and walk with me and I will show

you the bright side of love.

Day by day have past, we are getting older and older by day.

Your birthday has come which mine will come next. 

Let's blow the candle and together we face the world in new age.

Inside the cake there some key I have burried just for you.

The key is use to open my heart.

Hold my heart and never break it.

I trust you with all my heart by handing it over you.

Because

I LOVE YOU !

Time is TICKING.

The time is ticking, keep on ticking second by second,

I cant wait for the time. Will she be mine ?

I cant wait the time to come. I really wish I can

hold her tight and keep her save and comfort 

all the time. Only time can decide it. 

Today I have a weird feeling which is I never feel before.

Gosh... I miss her. My heart beat is like ' dupdap dupdap'.

I feel like dont want to miss her face even 1 second.

You know how I feel on you. Which is honest.

I WISH I CAN FEEL THE WARM OF YOUR HEART 

AND KEEP IT AS MY SWEETEST MEMORIES.

I LOVE YOU.

L.O.V.E

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V

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- Totally In Love -

But Who ?

A or B ?

A or B ?

A, normal and exactly like what I think

B, normal but not exactly like what I think.

A, I wont be on shock.

B, I will be on shock.

A, will be happy and looking forward.

B, will be happy but confuse.

BUT REMEMBER

Even though A and B is different but I will accept it

the way you are.